Still trying to sort out thoughts and all, but above all, I believe most of us are exhausted. From work or from lessons etc. Each time, we fall asleep telling ourselves 'Tomorrow's gonna be alright', believing in life and love.

I just hope things do work out from here, our souls don't burn out one day, and we can be happy that we are still living right now, right here.

(But I guess stress is imminent, and it is always there to challenge us, trying to steer us away from simple happiness and losing sight of what we need.)

Just, keep holding on.

Also, certain conversations kind of amuse me. Yeah I know that there are people who care extremely for you, but sometimes I kind of feel that I just want to let things known, but no I don't want any words of comfort. Because I believe that I can get things sorted out eventually, and even if I do need advices or comfort, I would seek them myself. In short, I guess I prefer to be the active one. Being passive just sort of..irks me I guess.

So thank you for whoever that tries to reach out to me at times, it's not that I am reserved or I don't like you, but I have my own plans. I really do just like to rant. With nothing else attached. (: So please, just see/listen, and be silent until I ask.

Which led me thinking, I am truly someone who forgives easily. I don't suppose people forget easily too, but each time I swear to hurt somebody in the future/Break off connections/Never forgive someone, it always fails pathetically. Ha ha ha so never worry for anything serious or shocking I swear when I'm on the verge of breaking down. It never happens.

Why too? I think sometimes I am just too nonchalant/apathetic. Or I refuse to let hate/sorrows consume my heart all the time subconsciously. At least that's healthy, but I think the real reason is that from time to time, I remember this text I've seen before that tells us to appreciate life since we are so lucky. We should be, after all, thankful for being able to wake up in the morning to the annoying alarm, or for being able to complain at work. Because we are blessed with hearing and blessed with something to do.

So, I am someone who subconsciously lets it go. Which is also why I rarely complain to people, or share my feelings with others. Because deep down inside, I know that those feelings are temporary, and that the down phase will eventually pass, and the rainbow will come after the rain. So why should we annoy/bother that unlucky someone with such feelings! But undoubtedly, I admit that we need to vent our emotions too, which is also why I only inform people about how I am feeling currently, but also never delving into details.

(and I guess that is why most people are left hanging there, ha ha! So sorry.) Maybe I'm lazy. But there you have it. I think it is kind of polite and necessary to tell others that you are not exactly feeling your best sometimes, so that they can empathize with you if you sound kind of down/harsh/don't really care to reply at the moment. But anything more than that? Thank you very much but no. I believe it's for your and for my own good.

Things come and go. So why hold on to them and start filling your heart with hatred/sorrow? Live as though it's your last moment, experience life to its fullest (: Because stubbornly holding on to something only makes your life stressful, and painful. Such emotions are good once in a while, but we cannot feel like that forever.

And that is why I think that we must (and is of extreme necessity) complain, be sad, and bemoan over whatever unfair or pathetic lives we are living right now, BUT, we must also never feel that way for long. It is, after all, a temporary phase in life. Be reminded of the simple fact that we are already luckier than many people.

Think that your life is failed currently? Think that your friends/connections are bad? Or that you cannot understand why others can seemingly be better than you in life?

Think again. Maybe all these thinking are the exact reason why your life hasn't changed. Stop comparing with others, stop holding on to the past, and even the present. STOP BEING WHINY ALL THE TIME. There is a difference between "always whine when you have a problem" and "always whining about the same problem". The difference is simple: Let go of whatever misfortunes you think you have, and let new ones in. At least you can whine about different things that proves that your life is moving on. Forgive, and tryy to forget.

That way, we can be happier people, and people will like us. (:

LOVE YOU LOADS!