that generation.

i fear, i fear(:

are we for the better or for the worse? ohmygosh sounds like im really reflecting on these few days of training but anyway, they can be linked or singular.

i dont know what to write anymore.

moments ago i think i was kind of angsty and angry even, but i guess mood swings around more easily lately, especially after this year, and nothing really matters anymore.

after all, in the end, we all move on.

recently i seem to be in lesser control of my temper, (a sudden realization!) :O

i dont know if it's for the better or for the worse, too, but i guess it's time i learn how to employ this to my advantage(: i feel that perhaps in the past i was just too...soft-hearted? or compliant? is that the word?

perhaps my random burst of emotions (and voiced out these times) can after all help me fight for my rights and be strong.

after all, we should grow stronger by the second.

hee hee i think it's only now that i really realise the difference they say, that of the difference between an arts and a science students. the mind really works differently and truly throws you into new perspectives :D

but i still maintain that, after all these years, im glad to be an arts student :D

HAHA i love to feel the humanity inside me (:

(and perhaps that would pose a great problem if i really took up computing? idk haha or it can be a worthy challenge, to see from different perspectives)

even though arts has sort of opened me up to the dark world, with philosophies and ideologies oh-so-complicated, enabled me to think in the deepest waters and meaning of life etc, i guess i learn how to treasure life more(:

(see see i still am directing myself towards optimism haha i guess it's kind of healthy)

so i guess, writing it all out does help? (:

it's always like this huh i realise, start off in heartwrecks, pains and cynicism, but after the words flow for a while, you realise that they direct you slowly towards the light.

words have power.(:

brilliant ones.

and if i constantly write (and cry), i think i can safely secure my sanity and optimism in life (:

it's kind of vague huh. and all of you have no idea yet as to why i started this post and/or the specific event which led me into kind-of-pessimism, heeheehee.

it's a habit. and even more so after learning csc HA.

i think i am truly an arts student(:

and, i think i should blindly believe for a while and allow my soul and heart some freedom they deserve.

time to slack!(: