and after all these years, i suddenly realise that i have almost zero (and perhaps just this one) icons depicting girls/people who are actually truly happy, and laughing out loud when they should. i guess i am truly not a happy girl by default, which is quite a different thing from what i used to believe in.

(or perhaps i was just too ignorant, i dont know)

anyway, there's no real purpose of this entry, and i feel like sometimes life's so full of hope yet sometimes so depressing. and for me, these moments fluctuate on a more frequent basis than others, and recently the extent for each has been escalating exponentially, leaving me wondering (amusedly) whether a day will come when the down moments are so excruciatingly painful that i decided to end it once and for all without waiting for the change :O

hahaha decisions, decisions. i like the way it's said (:

but i believe i will stay sane and practical (with of course, sensible notions)

haha i dont even know what im saying anymore!

anyway, here's a tribute to life, wishing everyone in the world to keep holding on, and be stronger ((:

speaking of which, i've always wanted to download this song due to it's continuous repeating of the phrase "be stronger, i will be stronger" that has brought me some hope and determination in life :D finally went to search for the lyrics just now and surprisingly the lyrics made me love the song even better, because it actually brought out the exact feelings i felt when i first heard the song (:

because a lot of time when i finally decided to search for lyrics and when they weren't within my expectations (which is almost most of the time), i feel a bit disappointed since it cant portray my feelings aptly. (Like Jordin Sparks' Worth the Wait', but luckily the melody is still unbeatable)

Then again you cant blame anyone, since almost all songs written today portray love and only a lil portion of them focuses on other aspects of life/other feelings, and that is pretty sad.

so anyway, do enjoy Ariel and Alexandria Moore's "Stronger". I especially like the first verse(:

(p.s: sisters ftw!)