and i promise to blog about something i really wanted to reblog about (from my own written some-sort-of-diary). perceptions about life and the world, and how each time i think about it i seem to have a bit more understanding about this universe we are in, not scientifically, but rather socially or psychologically. ha ha sometimes i think i dwell too much into it, but i guess in order to really survive in this world one needs to face not only the good side and also the bad side, as well as any other gray areas(:

(and i think im slowly beginning to navigate myself into the gray area, excellent. no sarcasm intended)

because i think i am beginning to perceive the world in a nuanced kind of view (ha ha gosh so GP styled but yes whatever we've learnt arms us for this isn't it). ha ha kind of difficult to explain never mind i will post next time fore sure (:

and it's going to be my 18th birthday :O not much intention to change (unless it's for the better, again debatable what is better), and not much feelings of significance once again. it's kind of like once you grow older, these kind of things doesn't really matter much anymore and you just lament how you really grew up and think (therefore behave) like your parents. and then you realise you don't really care if your friends gave you any awesome presents or remembered your birthday (contrary to young when it means everything in the whole world) anymore, because you already treasure the times you spend together everyday ♥

but you will still try to remember theirs, because you want to (:

(even if you might be forgetful and become truly sorry if you forget one)

okay i sort of lost the momentum for blogging ha ha. will visit in prob a days time (: jyaa.