lots of reflections again today and they all make me more convinced with my rules of life.
all these random thoughts, am i able to put them into words?

anyway, sighh another episode of cautiousness, tension, untiring efforts to resolve.
i think im going to throw in snippets of reflections that might or might not make sense, because these fleeting thoughts come and go so easily, sometimes it's hard to remember.

yes i do admit that there are moments where i impulsively wondered on the credibility of life, when i'd take on a rather cynical view, but these moments dont last, and i do think that some things i really believe in life, in this world, in us, are invaluable and really not alot of people really know it.
okay let me try to somehow write these things i try so hard to believe in.

i believe that everyone has a good side to him, and we shouldnt judge anyone with any first impressions or unexplained rumours/behaviours. get to know that person more before we say anything at all.

life is, and will always be, complicated and unfair. but we should not ever be cynical, what i mean is that we need to acknowledge that cynicism and move on, and keep on believing that good things will happen eventually if we keep on trying.

it is inevitable for us to feel extremely hopeless at times and extremely hopeful at other times. what we need to do is to search the skies for stars and remember the wonderful things the world has in store for us.

(and just reflected today i think) eventually, it is too idealistic for any of us to anticipate that social relationships can be always smooth and manageable. wrong. false hopes. because society is complex, and we actually understand each other deeper through conflicts rather then simple happy interactions, believe it or not. everyone has different perspectives and drastic lives.

and i guess these pretty much sums up what ive been able to conjure up so far. yea of course i do become a cynic at times and criticize and accuse.
"darling, forever is a long, long time, and time has a way of changing things."
yes i know. i've already seen so much.

but we simply cannot deny forever so biasedly, we need to acknowledge this cruelty and brace it.
we need to instead work towards forever.
"what keeps us in love is not chance, it is by work."
we need faith, effort, and everything nice.

so why blame god or fate or destiny, to those who still does, im sorry i dont think you are able to get the most out of this life. but i do wish from the bottom of my heart that you would eventually move on, move on.(:

i really want us all to complete this stage of our life being contended, with no regrets in the end♥

i want to compile a list (not exhaustive haha but yeah the main things♥) of items i love!
and i shall do so in the form of photos (:
MUSIC. and i want pretty headphones so badly!
and delicate traditional musical boxes ♥
and piano again, this photo again (:
STARS MY MOST BELOVED.
when will i get pretty white ice skates (:
dance (: modern dance esp.
bakery ♥♥ with bread cakes and pastries!
the feel of wind through your hair and grasslands(:
windchimes ♥ specific ones only haha since those with shrills sounds disgust me
vintage(: antique keys, cameras, photos etcetc

and cozy bedrooms (esp the position of bed♥)
and stuff ((:

okay lots of things to do shall be back♪ this is the first time in my whole life i spent so long blogging. i think my blog has totally replaced my diary and i would really cry out in despair if blogger closed down one day, or if i lost all my archives(:

jya~