spent the day by doing csc project at yiin jiunn's house. his "family" was there too! haha must say we werent very productive with the consistent temptation of anime etc.
but i just beautified our ppt and added loads more stuff! :DD i feel more productive now haha but i still feel mad at myself. because this is a project not individual homework. so in the end it felt like i accomplished nothing at all!

hmm dont know what else to say. tomorrow is lunwen fabuhui, followed by gala dinner.
great this is how holidays are wasted away.

traumatraumatrauma!
just why did ariel leave Clique Girlz! (and to think i was lag by two months)
and just when they were going popular too! hais. but at least ariel's solo songs are super nice too :D
and sara sounds nice too. but clique girlz will never be the same again!
haha, and so funny to rant to guofei about this XD yay we both agree that the new photo with sara on the official site looks more ugly! the previous one with ariel was so much nicer.

they used to look like this! and now its like this:
>(! hahah. okay all the best to everyone. ((:
and its really funny that ariel destinee and paris only had one album before ariel left! one and only hahaha.

anyway, tomorrow is going to be hectic. going to RV for a BSP talk, escape halfway to sentosa for huangcheng filming then going back to sch for the rest of huangcheng. rantrantrant.

dreaming in memories.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

( memoirs @ 10:06 PM )

as promised, photos! XD
attempt to brighten up my blog too. after all, this IS a holiday!

okay first update: sat was the last dance lesson at dancecastle. =( jive was super fun! hahaa hais sacrifice for huangcheng. so people you must come okay! i sacrificed dance for huangcheng leh!

and these two photos look like family photo. HAAA.

yay soohan and nathan who will be taking exam in april! :D too bad i cant continue if not i mighttttt take too!

elizabeth and her cute brother ( i think is jack!)

hahaha. to strike poses.

and the 2nd update: ht came over for study session! AWWW. always very happy when ht comes over! :D

anyways. i tried to take a video of ht's ridiculous expression when i waved the yupi in front of her. HAHA phail but anyway, yupi is nice!

a showcase of her many expressions... (i was insane by snapping continuously at her while she tried to read econs) this is SHEEPISH. HAAA.

ht: "WAHAHA. ECONS IS SO FUN!"

HT *tong ku de biao qing*

HOHOH.

an ugly one of me trying to read newsweek. HAAA.

yay anyway, must say that i was productive by finishing math tutorial 2B. i never want to look at graphs again!!!!

oh and had class outing at jiashen's house ((:

A16 forever yay! had so much fun chatting etc.

OH BEFORE I FORGET, some ridiculous conversations:

aye dont know why cannot type chinese now!

never mind, if i remember i shall do it next time. haaah.

serenity flows.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

( rush of love! @ 1:33 PM )

says to yourself: just please stop trying to imitate people.
and because there are some places you just cant fit in.
there are loads of instances when i just cant fit in like we did. therefore rou! i can understand the disappointment and reject too.

holidays, but only one or two days are free!
aye who cares. at least we can get up later and catch a break ((:

the tune of Kawaranai Mono and Garnet really changes my mood when i look at things. different perspectives huh. hahah sigh sounds so familiar.
and its going to be the last dance lesson later, escape or a lose? aye at least i wont have to spend two hours just to travel to tiong bahru anymore. save the money and time! :DD

and missing 408.
when will we ever have the time to bash each other and have such close bonds again?
hahaha so many random thoughts.

oh i think i finally know why i have such close feelings to the Girl Who Leapt Through Time! the reason why i keep watching the finale and all, and listening to the soundtracks.
because its all about time, bonds, and decisions aint it, ;)
thus the elevated feeling when i hear the music,
什么时候再见面?
因为,我会跑向未来去找你 ((:

ohyeah i suddenly remembered the movie's name! it's Gattaca! hahaha oh eugene :((
cry and cry. hahah.

it's about time we let go.

edit: OHYES.hahaha wanted to share this video! XD
was organizing my songs i got from yien chen and was finding the artwork for Love in the Ice by DBSK, and chanced upon their video :DD
seriously, you really have to watch the video to feel the song! best emotions portrayed and use of lights are just love!!
ahaha maybe im lag to not listen to this song earlier, but yepps enjoy:



photos of class outing etc might be up in the later posts! ((:

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

( relieve. @ 8:05 PM )

it's been really ventafulitericaboom this week.

just go with the sound, since with my limited vocabulary i cant think of anything ((:

sometimes theres so much things going through and reflecting through my mind its hard to put it into words, and when i try it comes out weird enough to distort the feeling i wanted to portray.

sigh. hahahah.

today huang cheng has released us early (courtsey to J2 blocks, and good luck!), thus the energy to sit here and carefully sieve through what the blur in the past few weeks had brought me. 

and then i find out im such a flexible person.

sudden events create these sudden outburst of emotions in me, and i always follow these emotional outbursts be it small or large intensity. but after one day or one hour or one minute i can just stop myself and the whole thing goes by. 

this is how offending comes. impossible to restrain or prevent. and just like grudges cant be hold and cant possibly hold on to when its like this. and sometimes deep down you know you are wronged but still you smile and let it go.

because, life is unfair aint it ((:

going through all the blogs create mixed feelings too.

keep on attaching strings here and there, because one day you will just lose them.

and lately my posts are so wordy short and emotional. hahaa cant help it like i said, and these just gets forgotten in time.

blogging in main comp is nice too, when i still have the collection of webbie icons. but safari is D

and i can continue to blog for the next few days, because its blocks for J2s ((:

and i must train on my kaisheng. really want to put up a good show for everyone!

and, chatting to ht after so many burdens and all really brings me away temporarily. the urge to talk forever :D thanks!

Sunday, March 08, 2009

( tears. @ 4:53 PM )

,and recovering from it.
sorry perhaps i was just too naive to have believed it, thus the punishment and tears.
or maybe i was only too happy to see the impossible before i plunged myself right into it.

one moment of lying to myself, one moment of happiness, one moment of tearing through that thin sheet of foolishness, and sorry to have cried.

emotionless.
too tired to go on.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

( and i still believe ((: @ 1:39 AM )

其实，有些人，隐瞒得很好。

只是这样子罢了。

而更真的是，我的能耐也只不过如此。

很想叫一声“如果我睡了，请不要叫醒我。”

“请维护我仅剩的一点点尊严。”

只不过，我没有莫醒醒的那种勇气。

或许不久后，我也会倒下吧。

this was what I was feeling on wednesday.

luckily, im reverted back to normal.

现在所想的，想说的，其实也脱离不了莫醒醒，因为“我们如此幸运。”

我们如此幸运。

有时，我的这种双重性格似乎也不是件坏事，不是吗？

Monday, March 02, 2009

( faint. @ 11:18 PM )

今天，我几乎尝试到了昏倒的滋味。

诡异的是，我之前是多么地渴望昏倒的经验，多么地希望能体验这种似谜的过程。
但是为什么真正到来的时候，却是这么让人措手不及？

a sharp stab in the stomach, the sudden limpness of my body, and the near shutting out of sounds in this world.

要痛快地痛，似乎不那么容易。