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Eyu. 08'07'92 WRPS;NYGH;HCI NUS Architecture Taint a celestial vault for me in shades of blue, and sprinkle stars over clear waters, emulating musical notes floating through frozen times. Give me a sandglass containing grains of memories, take a photo of someone dancing through the prairie fields, or maybe filter Paris's boulevards and cafes in vintage lens -- drown me in such ethereal worlds. ♪s recommends ♥KAGAYA ♥MND Minister Khaw Boon Wan the next route, family blogs ♥09A16 ♥ARES ♥ROU+EYU LUNWEN ♥102 '06 ♥202 '06 ♥NYCHOIR 202'06 ♥bearbear ♥guenn ♥minying ♥yihui 408'08 ♥evelyn ♥felicia ♥rouying ♥chiling seniors ♥ewe ♥her tumblr 09A16 <3 ♥jinyao 6w1 '04 <3 ♥yukiyoyeo (: ♥hweetian ♥cheryl ♥yen chuan
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Thursday, December 27, 2007 ( [doesnt matter now] @ 11:18 PM ) but yet, we tend to remember those that we fear of most strongly. luckily, we've still got friends who love us. ^.^ love overpowers those who fears. Wednesday, December 26, 2007 ( [Just breathe] @ 8:06 PM ) the past memories really brings back wonderful feelings. Its like you laugh at the things you see and read and recounter the scene as though it was only yesterday. and then you link the scenes to other scenes, reiterate the past and you realise how old we've all gotten. and then you shake your head and sigh at the time that flew past and muse over how innocent we were when we were young. how ive missed those times. the simple worries that had seemed so big to us at that time. now i could give up anything to go back to that carefree, active moments. there. thats it. by the way, this song is Enya's Only Time. I like Caribbean Blue as well. NYMD had a dance to that. anyway! lyrics at sidebar. on another note, hweetian!! i found our harry potter script!!!!!!! can you believe how happy i was! Tuesday, December 25, 2007 ( [godd] @ 3:30 PM ) I JUST REALIZED THAT I HAVE CHOIR ON 27TH AND 28TH. AND I JUST EMAILED THE WRL PERSON ASKING WHETHER I CAN GO FOR CIP ON 27TH AND 28TH. HOW DUMB CAN I GET?! ( [a] @ 3:26 PM ) repeat that and my holidays are gone (: im so useful! hurhur. only time Monday, December 24, 2007 ( [backback!] @ 2:37 PM ) 19th to 21st was TXY camp (: and even though there were times when I feel like just dropping down and cry, most of the times it was great and fun. <3! i want to go back again! first time in my whole life did i ever TRULY stay awake for the whole night, until the very next morning. we were playing cards and minding our own business and poof one moment the sky was dark and it turned whitish blue. lovely sunrise. I miss sleeping on the big platforms hearing the wind and raising my head seeing airplanes fly past real close. but most of all i miss my group fellow TXYs! even though we didnt win its still okay. shui3 zu3 forever!! oh. and i want to play saboteur once again!! so fun so fun so fun. ^^ another note: loads of photo swappings to be done. china trip and ht's hse trip. when will i ever get it all done. and when will i ever go to the carpark! OHYES. I LOVE OUR CAMP DANCE. SUPER NICE. OH. AND MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE! Tuesday, December 18, 2007 ( [oh no] @ 8:40 PM ) will be away from 19th to 21st. AHHHH whyywhyywhyy are there so many homeworks which i have not even touched on and yet still waking up everyday thinking of the stars moons suns abcs? have a nice fright of my life. (: 4 more visits to WRL for a complete NYAA service. piles and piles of LA CL Chem Math BSP to be done. 4 days of camping outside home. 2 days of school visiting for choir. im trying to relocate my mind. i know im like this. tomorrow is a different day. Saturday, December 15, 2007 ( [these things I'll never say] @ 1:01 AM ) fine scratch that and forget whatever i said okay? its absolutely pointless to argue on it with you. totally pointless. in quite a down mood now.worrying over things that have solutions deemed easy but, i just cant pull myself up to it. and the upgrading of the network turned out to be a disaster and oh why did we ever click that option?? now the wireless is off so temporarily i cant use my LP. for about a week. oh great. sighsighsigh. and i thought that i have been right all these years. i have been blinded by the surface looks and kept thinking and hoping that maybe its not such a bad thing after all. and then one day the truth smacks in your face and finally it dawns on you that actually all this while your heart has been hiding the dark side from you. and that i have lived in ignorance. why do we tend to remember the ugly pasts and forget about the good memories? these things i'll never say. oh and i got my MP4 back repaired. (: Tuesday, December 11, 2007 ( [simplicity is the answer] @ 6:08 PM ) been keeping my nails long and waiting for the fashion show. i know what pyu-chan means now. its really quite difficult when typing, esp when im worried about scraping off the print on the keyboard. hmm. conclusion: arrange the fashion show earlier so that i can cut my nails earlier as well! living in detest. Monday, December 10, 2007 ( [testing] @ 6:47 PM ) i shot these on the first few days when i just came back from china. i still like the clothes worn in singaore more. <3  new top. new pants. both given by my mum's fren!  the nightmare before christmas bag i bought in china ^^  new top again + ewe's shorts  in this photo, we both think that my hair look like the girl main character's hair (youxi) in the drama "mo nv you xi" haha.   this is when both sides are curled.  my masterpiece on ewe haha.  what i wanted to say here is i think i look weird but yet it still seem to fit. weird is the good thing to say. and today ht came to admiralty to shop so i went to accompany her and decided to buy her this hello kitty purse, since ive been late for so many times and have been excused magnanimously. hah. and it feels happy to give smthing and see someone (esp best fren) happy as well. and the accompanying buying trip ended up with ht coming to my hse and we played the piano surfed the net and recorded a lame MV with a nice song. ^^ OH. an we curled ewe's hair again. hahah! i guess her hair must have been dried up after the numerous attempts to "get her pretty". but thank you so much!! for compromising with our playful ideas and never complaining. love you lots <3.> shall post the second round of photos next time. ht and i even did researching on the methods of curling so this time round it looks so much better. (: had a wonderful time. looking forward to the next trip to ht's hse! ( [gone and away] @ 3:16 AM ) if you happen to chance upon this, you will hear nothing. ( [im here for you] @ 1:52 AM ) beware: 188 photos. decription: Nanjing, first stop in china others: because we normally help each other take photos with our own cams to save time, the photos here will show more of my friends rather than me. when i get the rest i'll upload as well! there are more to come! (Suzhou, Hangzhou, Shaoxin, Ningbo (Zhenghai), Shanghai) slideshow: Sunday, December 09, 2007 ( [dance as if no ones watching] @ 12:09 AM ) i love it so much! if i had not chanced upon it i wonder where i will be now. haha and the blogger made me puke again. when i pressed the preview button it showed me this distorted skin and i thought i had all my htmls wrong! and after comparing and staring and adjusting the template and still getting nothing, i accidentally put back my old skin and the result was still distorted. so i realised that it was not my html that was wrong. it was the preview button. which means its BLOGGERS problem! -pukes blood- and ive wasted so much time on it. rawr. oh wells. i hope you will like this skin because i love it ^^ kay. the uploading process is slow. ive only uploaded 40+ photos. can you believe it. oh and ewe's telling me all the different photo websites shes used and none's better than picasa web album. lol i shall believe and continue to put trust in the uploading!!! tata. Saturday, December 08, 2007 ( [breakaway] @ 9:39 PM ) firstly, i was uploading the photos and it suddenly hit me that i reallyreally miss our bus!! i really miss the times when rouying jiale peiying yanxin and i sat at the very back and slept through our china days on it. aww. 42 days on the bus and we've gotten so used to it! i really miss it. and umn. oh yes another thing is the hair curler i bought in china for just 6 singapore dollars, is awesome!i tried it on ewe yesterday and the result is good! =DD wahahaaaa i shall post the photos after the china ones! (god i owe so many photos. and i have 1000+ photos to upload to picasa. and what is the progress now? -checks webpage- uploaded 25 only.) sigh! but anw i dont have my cam with me also. its sent for repairing. (those who were with me to china know that my shutter button fell out and i have been using a plaster to stick i back on) haha im going to get it back tomorrow hopefully! they called saying its repaired alrdy. ^^ then i'll bring it to ht's hse!! ahaha i share the same vision as cheryl! we must put out an album full of the photos then it will be such beautiful and sweet memory (: or if not, a montage on net. and then we can show it to our kids when we get older! ahaha. currently searching for new skins. none really catch my attention really. hmmm. there are just so many skins that i dont know how to begin with. arghh. yay i love my new hair curler! and my new laptop! the main computer is really slow and hanging now. so im so glad ive got my LP. save time and things with. life is such a dream. ( [and to die you have to fall] @ 8:20 PM ) i found out that picasa web album is still not bad at all. so goes ^^ and shutterfly is really cute! but i cant link the album slideshow so im gng to continue trying. just keep holding on cos you know we'll make it through make it through i realised that LJ is not bad! but i wont swtich. (: Friday, December 07, 2007 ( [just keep holding on] @ 2:05 AM ) thank you pyu-chan! and the second thing is, my china photos are making me very,very, very angry!!!!! i tried to upload it into picasa web album and i realised that in picasa web album, i cant edit the photos or delete. which means, the photos which i havent uprighted the positions or accidentally upload by mistake cannot be deleted or redo!!! which means i have to use other means! and not to mention ive alrdy spent hours on the thing! and worse of it all, the uploading stuck at one place and the rest of the photos cannot be uploaded. FINE. I SHALL TRY SHUTTERFLY. aeerrrrr. another thing, i watched this silly lame but made me roll on the floor laughing video. ha. its harry potter puppets "wizard swears" at youtube. lol! its quite rude if you think of one side, but on another i think its really funny and can lighten you XD unless you really cannotcannot stand swears, thats it. but most of it are cancelled out with the beep sounds.. haha. just keep holding on. Wednesday, December 05, 2007 ( [more to come] @ 11:08 PM ) this song is Avril's Lavigne's "Keep Holding On". i got into it during the BSP trip hahah. every night i'll blast it in our dorm XD lyrics as beside (: move your mouse over it and it stops scrolling. ummmn. i feel as if im rotting. becauseee? im slacking. and ignorant towards the pile of homework. seriously. i think i'll go crying when school starts. ah speaking of that i realised that i dont have to buy a single thing/book for sec 4! amazing huh! i guess we must have bought sec 4 stuff this year too. and i just realised that, isnt it time to change my blogskin? when i just started to blog, changing skins every month is a habit. and now i think im starting to slack. hahah. i spent the whole day today trying to clear up and tidy up my table. haha. and i still havent finished. i started ytd, filing in all my papers and stuff from this year and i think my table is really messy. gosh. so everything is okay now. ^^ i just left wiping my table free of dust and arranging the stuff i bought from china. and i realised that i have bought so many books from china that i dont know how to stuff them into my cramped shelf. AHH! why cant i have those nice tall big bookshelves my father has! then i can put whatever stuff inside. oh and i realised as well that ever since i got back, i have been leading an irregular life and inconsistent and lazy life. i must change this! and i promise promise promise to 100% that i shall start uploading and arranging my china photos tml!! then i can blog about my trip and send the photos to other people and buddies in china as well! I MUST DO IT. oh and i think im starting to miss my short hair already. i mean , short hair and long hair both have their pros and cons, so i kind of miss my short hair. esp when the days i keep short hair is longer than long hair days, i must admit im not the type of person who knows well to cope with long hair ha. but i'll learn. yepps! ehhhtol what else. ohyes i want to use chinese to blog! but its troublesome, esp when this comp is SO laggy. i swear i'll put in the chinese prog into my laptop and then haha! i'll say goodbye to this! hmmm working sounds fun!! esp after reading pyu-chan's blog posts. and breadtalk is like so near! and they're short of hands! i want to go try as well lol! but then sigh my parents wont let me. they say im working alrdy (tuitioning) and thats easier than working outside. butbutbut dont you think working outside is really fun?! and these two things are totally different! different experience and feelings! i want to know how it feels working outside with the big society lol!! ohyeah. that makes me think of china again! when i was in china, it was like everywhere was filled with notices for people to work. then i was thinking, here in singapore its like fighting for jobs, in china its always jobs everywhere so cool! another thing: i have revived and relearnt my sundial dreams! tata, i'll blog tml, maybe. Sunday, December 02, 2007 ( [back from china] @ 9:48 PM ) ^^ and with mixed feelings. i miss china but i also miss singapore. i miss my friends but i also miss my family. when in china i feel that we lead a just nice paced life but filled with hidden arrows everywhere. from the teachers and from friends around. and then there will be times when a few close friends gather around and complain, discuss, find solutions. and we will get high and scream and shout and we will also worry for each other and cry and get unhappy and have friction. we will also get well again, learn and understand what it feels to step outside and depend on yourself and see the mini version of the modern society which we have barely started to reach out to. we will get tired of everything. the beginning is fresh and interesting. but as time passes, we realise that even though we have each other by our side, there are always people who cause us pain and hurt. 42 days and we still got used to everything. got used to all the laughters, sadness, angers, worries etcetc. i guess thats why when i finally got back, i have these mixed feelings. its like a 42 day dream. everything just rushed by so fast, im not even sure if i really existed in china. its just like i will wake up tomorrow and i will be facing rouying peiying and yanxin, with me freezing to death calling them to change the aircon to heater mode. the getting used to living in china has made this impression on me. and yet, it all seem like a dream. china and singapore is that far, yet it only takes 5 hours on plane, during which a nap and watching the mini screen took up the time. blink and you are in singapore. miles and miles away, and we have travelled back. when felicia left us due to her fractured leg, i was thinking what was she feeling. and ive experienced it now. i really miss the days. yet i am happy that those days are over. if only. i hope to live with my new goals and get more used to the life here agian. i hope! =) everything changes and if nothing changes, the world wont go on. and it is us who have to get used to it. and it has been long since i left. long days since i touched my piano and experienced everything. thats why when i rode the bicycle out today with the summer night breeze i felt happy.calm.sad. finally. lol. and then there are so many things to do. i really dont want to face all of this but still it is still gng to come. homeworks.SIAs.BSP report.CCA practices.TXY camp.NYAA.Library CIPs.Unpacking.Tidying up.Meeting up.Uploading photos.Exchanging photos.Making monatges.Updating blog.Reviving my piano pieces.Tuitoring.Stuffs to watch.Getting to know what has happened.Exchanging songs.Everything. all the must dos things, all the things thatim forced to do, and all the things that i force myself to do. im so scared that i'll forget to do them, or i will slack off and dont do them. deep inside i think maybe im starting to stretch.supposedly how am i gng to do all of that in the last few days? i dont even have one month left. i think i may really slack off. i cant bear to think of it. i really, really, really, just really, want to be a small and ordinary persion. i dont want to be any leader i dont want to be exceptionally good i dont want to attract any attention i dont want to let any teacher know me. i just want to be myself and an ordinary person. i want to be who i am. im afraid of big social circles. im afraid of hurting others and hurting myself. i want to stick to my friends. i just want to stay with those that i trust and love. because. im scared of losing things that really matters. and. i want to post in chinese. i convey better. |