compilation

a compilation of what has happened recently, uploaded onto tumblr almost instantly.
somehow the portal there just seems more user friendly, and also it gives me a (perhaps false) sense of privacy. because everyone thinks that tumblr is just my photo blog, probably.

but it seems weird to abandon this place and to divert my writings to another place.
interestingly, tumblr does seem to bring out the better writings from me. I wonder.

Anyway.

don't.

don’t break down. don’t dissolve. don’t pretend that everything is going to be all right. don’t abandon what you believe in. don’t give up trying. don’t let go just yet.

words hurt more than what the deadliest weapons do. there’s no more going back, but don’t despair just yet. sometimes life goes on. maybe you can change things. maybe you can’t.

how to be brave. this is a time I really need to be strong.

the deadlines tomorrow don’t account for this.

23 counts

I can’t believe it. the song has looped for 23 times, one and a half hours. I wonder if the neighbors are judging us, if heads turn in sympathy, disgust, or bitter.

How shall we pull through this long night? There’re no songs that portray such emotions adequately.

untitled

it’s breaking apart. what are we supposed to do, hearts strung as one yet so fragile?

that being said

emotionally drained, but all is well. at least for the time being. maybe this may be finally a breakthrough in our history, maybe not, i don’t know. i simply know this better not happen again, during my weakest moments in school.

that being said, i’m always trying to decrease that fragility whenever possible. maybe it’s just this sem, under new tutors, but no more maybes.

I’m just tired.

After each breakdown there’s a new start, despite the unavoidable waves of exhaustion. but somewhere deep down a voice always reminds me, at least we’re all safe and sound.

(: