[stressed]

cried two times in a row today (:
我发现，我真的是一个很容易受到刺激的人。
i was coping so well with my stress and all but yet something has to come up and push the limit over, and the emotions come tumbling out.
每一次这样，眼泪其实都快要流出来了，我却因时间不对而一直压抑自己，告诉自己回家后才痛哭一场。可是回到家后，才发现心情早已麻木了。
it always like this, feeling so bad and lousy at that moment and have a hard time controlling the feelings, but in the end when you are ready to let it all out, you realise that it was already in the past.
所以说，我还是一个坚强的人，但却没有人知道，因为我当时展现出的只有虚弱的那个部分。

and its really frustrating sometimes that someone dont understand your plight and still make hurting remarks about it.
if only they knew how it really is to be like.
so you think that its easy?
why dont you give it a try, and see how you cope it.
i bet you cant pull through it as well as i do.

so what if i dont have any extra activities like skill learning or heavy CCA practices? just because i dont take things that are same as everyone else means i am easier off. try some of my stuff and im sure that it wont be easy as well.

it sure isnt easy rushing here and there during break times and coming late for lessons unintentionally. as if i like the attention stepping into a class who is already deep in discussion or something like that. missing all your breaks and eating practically nothing to sustain through the rest of your homework and tests isnt easy.

im sorry im rambling like this when almost alot of other people are like this too, but, im sure someone will do this every once in a while. (:

i shall post ariel's video next post! now that this week is almost over, im sure the things will go away and leave me in peace ;)

just keep holding on.