I realize...

that I probably can never ever truly walk away from dancing, at least my heart wouldn't, and that dancing most probably will also become a shelved dream for the years to come. Those few moments in the past months which have left me in extreme worry and panic over the possibility of not being able to dance ever again, have caused extremely excruciating disappointment which I never want to face again.

Oh, and of the dance families that I have had so far -- I will also miss DanSHers terribly in a few weeks/months to come, just like how I have come to miss my dance families in DanceCastle and YNDA.

Not to say that I'm some really great dancer, but this is really something that I will always love with all my heart (: and that I often wonder whether I would ever have chances to dance again in these similar settings, when I've graduated and went on to work as an architect? Would I ever have the capability to balance the tremendous amount of work which would probably only accumulate, as well as dance in some other strange context? Or even have that courage to step up alone? Because what has made dance so endearing to me, is especially because of the great friends and family atmosphere each place has proffered me. In the working context I believe this is just too hard and fleeting to achieve at all.

I will most certainly treasure the remaining times I have in Sheares dance studio from now on, because who knows if next sem I'm still allowed here?

That aside, the new year has arrived once again, and once again we are plunged into the horror worlds also known as architecture studio. And once again, I try to brave myself up for this change of pace as compared to what Korea has gotten me accustomed to. Not to mention the everyday resolution of trying to be less dependent and more capable.

I don't know, but somehow one way or another we will always survive the semester. But we need to do more than surviving, and not to waste the precious years as students away.

我们每天都渐渐地老去，而我们短暂的存在到底换来了什么？
I'm still trying to live out my Personal Legend.